Wednesday, 20 June 2007

Anger's origin...

...at 32 years old one would think that one should have emotions under control... but when you get told your mother has terminal lung cancer I guess it refocusses the mind.

It may seem that I can bleat like the best of the rest... but when all is said and done... I think the bloke upstairs has a sick sense of humour.

My mother is no angel... nobody is the angel that they would like to think that they are... however she has spent over 30 years in the role of a nurse caring for terminally ill cancer patients and only 6 months after she retired she was diagnosed with breast cancer... after a long hard fight she beat that and went to visit my brother in Australia for a couple of months with a clean bill of health... all seemed good... then 2 months ago she went for an x-ray to be told she had a shadow on her lung... those in the know know what that means... those that dont know will be enlightened to find out that in many circumstances that a shadow on the lung represents cancer of one type or another.

I have spent many many hours in tears with the comfort of my partners hugs keeping me sane... but taking mum to chemotherapy 3 weeks ago was a blessed experience for me....

then came today... second round of chemo... and an alergic reaction... apparently she reacted to the drugs and balooned as well as turning blue... nobody knew what to do right away... but they worked it out and she lived... the harshness of chemotherapy hit another level today...

I know not why i should include this in the blog but its my blog and I'll cry if I want to...

4 comments:

Sharkith said...

Oh God Taki mate I am so sorry to hear your going through all of this.

I am thinking about you.

:'(

Roz / Zora / Ambera / Ascarii said...

/hugs

Claudio said...

I hope it all turns for the best dude, my thoughts are with you.
Sometimes life's a bitch, and she wants the bill for nothing in exchange :/

Gahn

Lieva said...

:(

*hugs*